hey

It’s the semester break. As usual, I have a lot of plans.

Whatever variation of plans I have for myself every semester, I always plan to get a job. You know, an actual paying one (regardless of how minimal) and doesn’t involve running errands for my mom. Because that’s what I do basically when I am home. I’m the personal assistant. Rephrase, slave is more like it.

Not complaining about it though. Now that I have grown a little, doing those things feels like a real responsibility rather than a dreadful chore. I mean, it’s the least I can do right? At least I can say that I am not a spoilt brat. A least I can say I do work for what I get. Plus, I think it’s a good training. Being my mom’s daughter taught me patience and hence, you people rarely see me snap. Or probably, never see me snap.

I was hanging out with my friends last night; Chut, Eba, Kizzy, Fenny (who also happens to be my cousin, just like Chut), and Fauzi. We had dinner together and then went lepaking at Auntie BB’s house.

When I am surrounded by the people I am comfortable with, I tend to be really talkative especially when there’s so much to tell. So considering I haven’t seen any of them in months, there was plenty to tell.

One topic to another, I finally admit that I planned to work at a kindergarten this semester break. In fact, I have been planning to since last semester. My dad gave me a heads up and said I should ask around. My mom seemed reluctant to let me though. She said stay home and babysit Mia instead. She’ll pay me if I triumphantly manage to teach Mia to read ABC by the end of the holiday. Ha!

By the way, Fenny made it clear to me that she thinks I’m not ready for a real job. She even added “I mean… look at you” with her hands pointing towards me, top to bottom. Obviously she was underestimating my capabilities.

How hard can a kindergarten be? Dozens of screaming maggots?

Ayayaii :S

…perhaps she’s got a point. Maybe I’m not ready. I guess I’ll just stick to serving Puan Hindun for now. Besides, the pay is awesome! : )

P/S: Wendyvia Banun Wilson, where are you?? I SOOO want to gossip!

I hereby declare season 3 to be over.

Note: By the time I publish this entry, I would already be in my room; either at my table or on my bed. It was written, however, on Saturday the 14^th of November 2009 at 3.42pm.

Iziee and I are the last ones to fly back home. So I took her for a movie at Sunway Pyramid on Friday night… we watched “Pisau Cukur”. Now before you go teasing and making fun of me for watching a Malay movie on the Cinema (or basically being a complete jackass about it) instead of waiting for it to come out on TV next Raya, let me say it first, screw you!

I had fun watching it and I picked up new alternatives for the overrated terminology, “oh my god”. Curious? You go watch the movie yourself la. Ha!

I love that Fazura stars the movie… side by side with Aaron Aziz, Dj Nas-T, Henry Golding and Eizlan Yusoff.

I know a lot of people look down on local movies. Frankly, I’m no different. We have our own (perhaps slightly biased) rational reasons for being so, thanks to those years of crappy movies. Whatever crappy Malay movies you can come up with years back, yes, those are the ones this innocent girl is referring to. The ones I hate the most are the ones directed by YH. Especially the ones featuring the queen of wig as the lead. Ughhh. Meluat ok.

A friend said to me that those people who enjoy watching chick flick have weak minds. When I asked why, he said because they cannot handle heavy movies. Well, apart from wanting to prove to the world that you take yourself seriously, I think there is always more than one side to everything my dear. I say you are the one with the weak mind. You want a shitload of serious stuff? Don’t watch a movie, read a book.

Enormously thick and scientific ones with those annoyingly tiny and minute words. No images. Just lines and lines and lines and more lines of words.

Anyways, Iziee and I were reflecting on the nearly-over semester before the movie. We talked about what happened, rumors of the semester, friends gained, friends lost, the ones we’ve dated, the ones our friends dated, future plans and a bunch of other “drama-drama masscom”.

All of that happened in one semester? Ayayaii… :S

Season 3 flashbacks.

The twins with Ucop the Kimora-wannabe

assignmenting at Shida's

buka puasa with my wonderful classmates :)

merdeka eve at Pakli... I'm so sorry ameer's pic is not here.

Putrajaya with my girls

ameer's bday

ucop and iziee cooking lunch for us :)

season 3 wrap up at Burger King.

girlies: moon, iziee and me.

raya with the classmates

raya at nita's

my car got clamped; my first and please be my last

some of my friends. A LOT missing.

Another addiction

Other than Gossip Girl, I am also addicted to The Hills (as in the reality show on MTV). I wait for the new episode to come out every week on the website. Now it’s already season 5 of the show. The only reason why I watch the show is because I love her.

Kristin Cavalleri

Apparently, replacing Lauren with Kristin turned me into a devoted follower. Loves!

So I bet you notice that I have been really quiet with my weight losing regime. Honestly, it’s been so long since my last visit to the gym. I bet my trainer will tease me like so badly when he sees me. Ugh, verbal abuse! Hee.

I have also lost the ability to resist food even when I am not hungry. Sometimes I feel like munching on something just because I feel like it. Worst, I even comply with this awful tendency at most times. Ugh.

Anyway, what I need is a reminder and motivation. Not cynical ones from YOU but constructive ones from me.

What I wanted to do initially was make a list of the reasons why I want to lose weight. But somehow it just does not feel right. I mean, after I lose weight, then what? So I decide to make a list of the reasons why I want to be on track, because losing weight is the result of being on track. Don't you think?

1. . Live a long and healthy life
2. . Experiment with amazing fashion
3. . Be an example
4. . Be comfortable
5. . Be strong and fit

So, I’ll have this list with me at all times as a reminder. I need to get back to the mindset I had before Raya, day to day.

P/S: I love surrounding myself with positivity. Do let me know how you are taking control of your life okay?

Brief update

1. Officially addicted to Gossip Girl. I can't believe it. I do think my case is one of the worst cases out there. Beb says the show makes me emotional. It's true. It breaks my heart seeing Chuck Bass so depressed over his father's death. *sighs*

(Now watching season 3)

Oh, I am sooo into Blair. I even have my own Dorota (Blair's very faithful maid). Mel is my Dorota! :)

2. Now, if you're riding with me in my car, all you will ever listen to is the new Paramore album "Brand New Eyes". You tak suka, you naik Rapid KL. Comprehend?

3. I am so hoping my family and I get to spend the semester break at Sister's place again this year. Please? A week or two should be ok :)

I'm going away for a while. Finals.around.the.corner.

Ugh.

Something else you should know (my attempt in being jiwang- take 1)

...you better appreciate this. Here goes.

You were right about most of the things you said about me although I can't remember what you said exactly.

Yes, I am insecure and that is why I am not very expressive. Also, yes, it is because I was brought up this way and because of my own experience. (I wanted to tell you but you were talking so fast and you didn't give me a chance to talk)

Considering our situation, things can easily get complicated. I don't want it to be too simple and easy. We're definitely more than that. I can't afford things to be complicated because I like what we have. I guess... I don't want to risk it? You're not the most emotionally stable person I know and you might just go away.

That's why I am doing this your way. Whatever makes you happy and... mine? :)

Because if we do it my way, I'll have both of us change our Facebook status. Hee. I know you don't want that.

I don't say much because I thought you know how I feel. I hope you know I mean it when I say I miss you. I sure hope you know why I'm here for you in the first place. Not because I'm your bitch. You'll remain my bitch.

...and then there's that little thought in my head that you might just screw me over. That's another reason why I chose not to say much. You can be so wonderfully overwhelming sometimes and I do question in my head, are you for real?

So, I tried distracting myself from thinking about you and what you said by entertaining myself with other people's Facebook shoutouts, hoping that I would find amusing stuff that Wendy and I can joke about later.

Then I came across this one:

“You can’t hide love or a cough"

Celaka. Hee.